Yesterday, as I walked with my friend Phil, he suddenly turned to me and said "You need a boyfriend". Now Phil happens to be an extremely intelligent and mature 10 year old boy. I couldn't help but laugh. Even a child can recognize that my being single is just NOT RIGHT! When I finally stopped laughing I asked why do you say that. In a child's simplicity he answered "What if you need help moving something heavy?" I nodded in agreement. Phil was absolutely right in his assessment. There have been numerous times where I have been faced with this dilemma and been mad that there was no man present to help me. I went on to tell him that if I really need help I would call my dad or a male friend. He shook his head as if that wasn't enough. Phil wasn't buying it.
Ohhhhh, if matters of the heart were that easy. How do you explain to a 10 year old all the bullsh*t that goes along with finding a "boyfriend". Should I have said "I had a boyfriend but we broke up because he said he needed to "focus" on himself?" Nah, that would've been too much. So we agreed to disagree.
My last relationship ended a year ago and ended horribly. I thought this guy was "the one". He adored me, held me, and most importantly his actions indicated that he truly loved me. Obviously love wasn't enough. I watched him and our love unravel right before my eyes. This man who had often spoke of our future together eventually told me (after our 1 year anniversary) that he needed time alone to pursue his career. I can't even explain how that felt. I was livid and devastated all at once. The only thing that kept me going was the fact that I knew this man wasn't who God wanted me to marry. How did I know? Just days before my then boyfriend dropped this bomb, I inadvertently said to God (not thinking anything of it) Please show me if _________ is the man for me.
Wow! I did not expect an answer so quick. And looking back I wish I would have said that prayer right after our first date :-) but you live and you learn. Here I am, a year later. Still faithful, and certain that my man is coming. And he's not just any man, he's THE man. The one created for me. I refuse to let my past hurts interfere with my present blessings.
Ladies, I implore you. Don't give up hope, your man is closer than he's ever been!